Few moments ago, a teacher from the school that I am posted to, has texted me. So, I was informed that I will be in the afternoon session for the rest of the year. Quite a shock since I was told and mentally prepared for a morning session. Nevertheless, it made me glad and somewhat sad at the same time.
Being in the afternoon session means that I won’t get stucked in the morning madness in the bus/train. Experienced that when I was working at GNS a year ago and it wasn’t exactly a pleasant experience. The rush simply makes me nervous. Hehe. But I got used to that. Then again, I am glad for no morning madness and well I can take my time to kick the day off, hopefully, into a pleasant one. Another thing is that if I have to have late night due to work or anything, at least I can catch few hours of sleep after solah. Hehe.
However, on the other hand, which didn’t look so pretty, is that the afternoon session will mean that I have to make amendments for my tutoring. For the current one, I was telling and trying to negotiate with the parent to allow me to tutor their daughter at night. The parents, or in fact the mom, are really nice and understanding people. But I would have to understand if night tuition won’t be possible so as to let the girl rest. So, I was thinking it’ll be in between having it at night or not at all. Then, the mom told me that we could have it once a week as the girl still wants to have the tuition and they think she can cope with once a week. I am glad even for the once a week. For another case, is a new tuition assignment that is supposed to start on Tuesday and will be thrice a week. Instead of negotiating to change timing, I decided to let that assignment go due to several reasons that I prefer to leave it untold. So, instead of was able to earn at least $500 more, it’ll be just bout $100+ extra apart from my teaching salary. I am sad that I can’t earn much extra for me to put aside into for my savings. I’ve been putting up hope for being able to earn extra with tutoring. But it looks like hope is left with hope.
I’ve been trying to comfort myself that it is okay. Apart from that, I’ve been wondering if it is a blessing in disguise or yet another test for me. It could be yet another test for me…that is a test of whether I am grateful for what I have in hand, that is the teaching career and a tuition assignment instead of being bitter for what I lose. It could also be a blessing in disguise…probably something else will come along and gives me more or makes me happier. I wouldn’t know now. Maybe I will never know why. But I’m sure He has His reasons for putting me at this spot and He knows best. I realize there will be more tests and challenges coming along that will make me wonder ‘why?’. Then, after wondering ‘why?’, I should comfort myself with the faith that there is a reason and He knows best, and that I should be grateful for what He has given me thus far.